As a Christian, I’ve struggled for many years to overcome a tendency to live according to law instead of grace. Early in my life, I imagined it was possible for me to live according to God’s commandment to love him with all my heart, mind, and strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. If I worked hard enough, I could do it with perfection.
Gradually I realized that I neither understood the meaning of that commandment nor the difficulty I would have in following it.
Today’s poem reflects my struggle, the understanding I’ve gained, and the joy I’ve found. It’s an ongoing adventure.
I read in God’s word what he expected of me In my pride, I imagined I could do it. But the virus of sin took control of my flesh So when temptation came, I failed the test Every day, I fell short. In numerous ways, I blew it. I despaired until I learned this: I can rest in Jesus’ merit. Every day, I compose New songs of joy and victory! What was impossible for me to do, he accomplished To recognize this truth brings me freedom— As, with joy, I put aside prideful independence And align my heart with his word and his Spirit. Then, I can do what pleases God. It, also, pleases me. Every day, I compose New songs of joy and victory! I read in God’s word what he expects of me. And in the power of the Spirit, I do it. Not yet with perfection, yet sufficiently; I’m a child of grace and will keep growing. By his Spirit, God will bring me to maturity. This is the promise he’s given me. Every day, I compose New songs of joy and victory! 9/5/2019 Jane Ault